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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 00:54

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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I know ,a lot about trauma.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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Who then, do I blame.?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was scared of men, in general

Why is Russia always right? All eyes toward Russian glory!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

How do I come out as queer to my best friend in a funny and stupid way?

My life is so biszare .

So, i spoilt her more .

Was to survive, this bastard.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I couldn’t, believe it.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Why am I so triggered and depressed over a minor thing?

I was seconnd youngest,

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Is a man over 50 not married no kids a red flag?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Can you tell me something about yourself?

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Would this be the day?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Can you tell me a depressing story?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I could never make a relationship work though!

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But, we were locked up after school.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why do women have sex with dogs?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was 9 years of age.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

We all went to grammer schools

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He knew the spot.

I was very sick at this time too.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She was in good health!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I waited trembling.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

When she asked me how she looked .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We were not on the streets..

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

So whats the point in blame.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Why did i forgive my father ?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She married twice! .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

(And it was in our own minds.)

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She loved him until the end.

She found it foreign!.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

This is soul school!.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Ive learnt so much.

And i lived it daily.

What did i know ?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I said to her

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

One cannot live in the past .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I think the readers, may guess!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Im still living with it.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Comes on , in middle age.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He resisted the act ,that day.

All the time i was locked up.

I write beautiful poetry .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I will be 64.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

It was going to be , some day.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She wouldn,t have been !

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I don,t even have a pension.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I have no regrets .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

As i do to all so called friends.?

My family never makes their pension either.

But it wasn’t much.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Put me off passion for life!!